Obviously, a lot of questions have been on my mind. Especially about marriage and what it is and relationships and what they're supposed to look like and what singleness is supposed to look like and why the heck it all happens, to people, to everyone.

I'm really considering writing a book (or maybe just a really long blog article that everyone can republish and repin and pretend is awesome). Even if it is just for me, maybe it could help some struggling girl out there. I mean, after not really being single for three years and then having it thrust upon me (and just with everything else going on), I am gearing up for some BIG things (everyone keeps telling me that, but it does honestly feel big and purposeful, because otherwise if it's not, it just all sucks). There's a lot of lessons being learned and to be learned through this process.

PS everyone should read the article below. It does relate to marriage, but it is such a bigger picture than that. God wants to set you free of everything. Of all expectations. And even of the things you think you want, but aren't good for you.

http://www.abigailmarygreen.com/blog/2015/4/3/the-day-i-decided-to-stop-listening-to-what-everybodys-saying-im-supposed-to-do-why-im-not-ready-to-get-married-in-44-days