I feel more renewed now that my heart is not aching and busted open. Now that I'm not clinging to idols and my bedsheets for a comfort that I wouldn't find in my apartment or in a crack in the sidewalk (you have to look up, you know).

I do not mean to be vague but my confusion is an illusion for shaking out of a bad dream. In this post I have included some of my healthier goals for this semester. They seem exhaustive but they are the things I know will give me some of the greatest reward, in moving closer to God and learning more about myself.

GOALLLLLS:
grow closer to God (spend more quiet times with Him, especially- I'll let you know how this manifests itself for me uniquely).
grow out my hair some more (get a big blonde streak in it).
wear my new porn is not love shirt as often as possible (brace myself for opposition, too).
learn a certain song on the ukelele (I basically will be a rock star).
get on Facebook as little as necessary.
wear my style with confidence.
follow up regularly with a new believer.
return to my post as life assistant.
take bubble baths once a week (at least).
lead women's prayer times with humility and a heart seeking God.
read redeeming love, the gift of being yourself, seven, love does, and my textbooks, haha.
hold a little get together at my apartment!
learn how to cook without melting grilled cheese (but still savor leftovers from home).
clothe myself with truth when I need it (figuratively and literally).
dance around and sing in my apartment a lot more often.
hang out more often. FaceTime. Skype. talk on the phone. tell people I miss them (because I do), it's just been a jumble lately.

one thing to leave you with: a quote.

"In all of creation, identity is a challenge only for humans. A tulip knows exactly what it is. It is never tempted by false ways of being. Nor does it face complicated decisions in the process of becoming." (the gift of being yourself)